this feeling

fever. not me. it's exam fever. great record for not playing PSP for more than 24 hours.
cuz it was kept in front of my room. (Caca's room)

it's kinda devastating for PBD (Classroom Management) paper.
one of the terrible thing in my life if i couldn't recall what i've learnt/ read.
so be it. only Allah listens to my pray.

wishing i'd go Puchong visiting my 2 cuddle nephews this Wesak holiday - 28th May.
thanks to my cute-should-be Sushi King calender, mistakenly put the Wesak holiday on 21st May.

my medicine for nose treatment is almost finish. just for allergic one left.
couldn't wait for this holiday, i'm planning to see ENT specialist.
keep hoping everything would turn fine and not burdening me.
but i always told myself, "NO PAIN, NO GAIN".
well, if only it's really polyp, i won't be surprised.
thanks to Dewan Kosmik, i learnt about health a lot, including my own one.

but wait, scout camping is around the corner, after the exam.
and to be honest, i love my previous group members better instead of the new one.
but learning new thing somehow is kinda fun.

what sort of feeling is this? it's total anxious...

i never feel okay in every exam season, unless for PSV 2 paper in SPM. =P
i reckon this caused by i'm lack of discipline in my study, but still dreaming to pursue my 2nd degree or master in Italy or France.
people may think art is fun and easy, but for me art is challenging and it's not like everyone could understand it.
even when i talked about perspective line, many couldn't get it.
the same situation when i said i didn't understand binary number to my Math class friend. ;D

now i'm thinking what would i answer for my PSV paper next week???
the prob is, we're learning Adobe Illustrator and Photoshop for graphic, but why would the spot questions tend to ask about CorelDRAWlife i've never installed that software!!! ha3~ so i'm currently learning 'bout the tools type & their functions.

if only i could always feel happy like this moment...

Crafting at hometown

Goin' back to Yong Peng, after 2 months I didn't fill my hometown address in the Buku Kuning (the yellow book use by IPGTAA's trainees as permission to go back home). Miss Yong Peng very much, miss Badut (the pink bear given by Yah on my 17th birthday), my Putera Sawyer Philbert (PSP), and pepperoni pizza in BP Mall. =P

This is Badut.

However the main reason I went back to Yong Peng was to seek doctor, to solve my wonder about polyp on my right nose that I had discovered since I was 13 or 14. Eventually, the doctor asked to seek the ENT (ear nose tongue) specialist. She only gave some medicine to reduce the 'thing' (which is still unsure what is it), and she said maybe it's to late to cure it fully, unless I do the surgery but it'll still appear again. So I'm planning next semester break on June to see the specialist.

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This post is dedicate to my mother, whom I called as Mama since I was born.

To be honest, I didn't even remember that the 2nd Sunday in every May is Mother's Day. What made me realize it was my sis' wall on facebook. (thank to her, huh)

So I got an idea to give Mama a gift, which she said she wanted something to put her pen on her table.

Handmade design cup "HAPPY Mother's Day", made by my hand =D

With love shape *I love crocs!*

With pink love he3

From me and my sis, although made by me 100%.

Done~

Well, I don't feel this cup is beauty nor neat, however made by full of love, I feel the satisfactory. Mama said that it looks like kopitiam cup. ha3

Myself on reflecting my assessment

It had been ages, no, five months.

Lots people keep asking me to update my blog, sorry to disappoint all of you.
Due addicting to facebook, gaiaonline, PSP, etc.

What I'm about to highlight is about my assessment, for my Visual Art Education (PSV) courses.
- painting (if only I were talented like Johan Marjonid...)
- wood carving (I'm not a carpenter's daughter, roftl)
- designing pattern by graphic software (luckily I were born in graphic designer family...)

Taking uncountable hours to complete the tasks, all of us (the PSV unit) became zombies for 2 weeks before the assessments, turning the class to art village (perkampungan seni), made use of the class as our home sweet home (to eat, pray, sleep as well). I'm spending every weekend (for three weeks constantly) to settle my graphic printing to Abang Long's home.

Plus, lots other assignments to be submitted at the same moment, so it's like killing two (no, it should be more!) birds with one stone... much tiring, but I'm sticking with the phrase, "NO PAIN, NO GAIN"

I never denied it's bit disappointing when my lecturer complained and expressed their unsatisfactory towards my artworks... but to reflect back, it's all for our benefit. We cannot gain anything without sacrificing something. Everybody have sacrificed enough to invent the best product for exhibition + assessment.

As usual, every time when the assessment came (as well as the previous previous previous semesters), lack of sleep disease occurred. So, every semester I wish I could manage my time properly, but... ha3. To be honest, I did enjoy this pain because I wasn't alone, of course my classmates were in the same boat! This is the sweetness being art student. I believe leading a challenging life makes a man (but I'm a girl). ^___^

Sorry for the long lecture, these all my products I made;

Category : Painting
Title : Penerokaan (Discovery)
Subject matter : Nudibranch/ sea slug (chromodoris glaniei)
Media : Acrylic
Style : Realisme (subject matter), post-impressionisme (background)


Category : Wood carving
Material : Wood, shellac
Subject matter : Wild lily


Category : Graphic
Products : 2010 calendar, 2011 mug
Subject matter : 4 types of nudibranches

Thank you to all my lecturers whom had all helped me a lot for completing these tasks. My family whom always supporting me to ensure I could do everything well, and my friends whom had been in hard time together. And foremost, Allah who had given me chance to do this challenging tasks. (short acknowledgment =P)